wasting the days

                               i looked outside this morning dreading the day, dreading the math test, dreading science class, dreading gym, hating geography. every second of the day i hated, knowing, living, and remembering the day just kinda sorta angered me. its finaly friday every one shouts, and me: oh great...friday, why couldnt it be saturday?? every day in school is eight hours gone a day, 40 hours a week, 224 hours a month on average, 2240 hours in a school year, 2240 hours ill never get back, not including extra curricular activities, so roughly 2240 hours ill never relive, the way i want to live them, i know i need school and i know everyone has or does feel this way babout school, im jus putting how i feel on the internet so all you can read it. every day i wake up, take a shower, get ready, and leave, walk into each class, and start dreading every minute of it, yes i have friends, and theyre the reasons i dont give up entirely, im just lookin to waste away the days, wake up, eat, shower, work, sleep. thats its. thats may day off, my summer...good enough, its not school, im good with some work, a nice long shower and then...sleep. hangin with friends is always welcome to. i want to watch the sun rise over the horizon, slowly set its enchanting glow in the air, watching the leaves glow with radiance, watching them float and shudder with the calm wind, a warm breeze flowing all around, i want to walk around the yard with no shoes at the crack of dawn, watching the dew glisten in the emerald grass, and then sleep til noon, i want to smell fresh cut grass, i want to hear lawn mowers and table saws and anything that reminds me of summer, all the life of summer, forget spring and fall and bitter winter, i want me some good ol summer, i want to drive out to my granpas farm with the windows down and the music up, i wanna drive through the country as slow as possible, pull up to a pasture or field, park, climb up on the hood and lay there, and just sleep, or watch the clouds float on by. i want to draw, watch movies and listen to music every waking moment, and dream of drawing, music, movies, sunlight, and whatever i want to dream about. i wanna skip rocks in missouri, i wanna walk through the woods, find that perfect shot, shoot, but not with a gun, a camera. i like hunting but sometimes instead of taking life, why not just preserve it, let it live forever?? i wanna go down by the river, find a good smooth boulder, or a good fork in a tree, and guess what im gonna do...sleep. i wanna hear the sound of the river flow by, tempting to even jump in to, but nahhh, just sleeping will do. i just wanna waste the days away, not thinking ahead for a project or homework, but i wanna look back, look back on the day before, and do the same thing, i just wanna waste the days.